oh, deer!

Woah Wow! I'm on my blog! posting something! weird! well, not too weird because ive been incredibly bored since this little move of mine. Well, actually not so little, I'm in Utah! I've been here now for two weeks and I've actually had a lot of fun and done cool stuff BUT mondays are just quite boring especially when you A) dont go to school B) dont have a job and 3) everyone is at school OR work and youre just left alone in your big apartment with nothing left to do EXCEPT start up your blog again and try to revamp it ( dont try it if you dont know how...i tried... its messed up right now.,. bare with me).  

SO my new apartment is coming along quiet deerly ( no, not dearly.. just hold on.. you'll get it)

I still have a lot more decorating to get done but so far I'm liking how its going

Look at it! look at my cute little wall! i'm quiet fawned of it

okay okay I'm done with the puns!

but anyways

i was just excited about how my new little home is coming together

and i was bored so thought i'd share with my never viewed messy blog!

be expecting more of these little posts because

it'll be my new little hobby

xx,

Ataya

It's Raining Its Pouring

Its raining! Its pouring! but no, oh goodness no, there is no snoring!

Not for this girl that is!

How could I sleep when the sweet sound of rain, warm hot chocolate, 

and my book(s) are calling my name!? Not to mention Jaymay on repeat!

the answer is i cant, i simply cant! California gets like 2 days out of

the year where is actually rains for more than five minutes and

I'm not going to waste on second of it!

not only am i kept wide awake

by the rain festivities but I've just been busy.

busy busy busy.

and not busy as in must get things done busy but

fun busy.  books, shopping, DISNEYLAND, who knew 

i could have so much fun? Not me that's for sure

So why haven't i been posting about it?

because i forget to take pictures or feel lame

asking for someone to take selfies of me.. haha

what can i say?

I'm a material girl living a material world(;

 you guys, i dont think you understand... i just LOVE rain!

everything about it! not having to do my hair, the sound, cuddles, warmness!

awhhh if only it was like this all winter

okay i was so excited for this massive cup of hot chocolate and what could or could not be piles of whip cream.... and it was a total dunce! it was not yummy at all ): but by adding the mountain of whip cream  it made it delicious!

 ignore my chubby fingers... i dont know whats going on there...i promise

my fingers are normal size... haha!

 I'm making a new goal for myself!
to post more! i used to post
quiet a bit but then i kind of lost touch
and thought my life was boring with nothing to share
but with holiday coming up im more excited than ever!

XX,
Ataya

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. CARLY RAE JEPSON! CALL ME MAYBE?(;

P.S.S oh boy! literally... oh boy! but thats for a later time

Happy Sunday

I'm kind of bad at this whole blogging thing
but these past couple weeks have been really hard
and this Sunday just seemed to make these weeks
just a little bit easier and understandable.

I wont go into the pity details so I'll

just say I wasn't finding answers but also

wasn't really looking for them either. But 

the best answer comes from those questions that

you don't ask about at all.

So, what is it about Sundays that can just make two weeks of crying and hardships understandable and bearable? Church, Sacrament, Scriptures, My Fabulous New Young Women Leader, And some home made chocolate cake from the worlds best step mom.

My lesson today that seemed to make everything clique all at once for me was

Self-Reliance:

As much as i can lean on someone else for help or even blame them for how I'm doing or feeling, it all comes back to me. How i am treating myself/others. How I am seeking out my days a latter day saint. How I keep a good mood. And how and if i choose happiness.

I didn't think you could "choose happiness". I mean if you're sad then you're sad. Its a natural emotion how are you supposed to just brush that off? I guess you don't necessarily brush it off but just don't stay sad, don't just give up, find the way out.

Whats the way out?

My typical way out is Kardashian Re-Runs and some major naps but that isn't a way out just a distraction.

So then all too quickly i go back to feeling weak...

So the real way out...put yourself into the lords hands.

Ether 12:  27 And if men come unto me I will show unto them their^aweakness. I ^bgive unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my ^cgrace is sufficient for all men that ^dhumble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make ^eweak things become strong unto them.

So, what did i take out of this Sunday is a big question..

I understand now that my Heavenly Father never has his back turned to me when I'm not doing whats right or not searching for his guidance. And I understand that in those moments where I'm on my knees praying for his help and his comfort and i don't receive answers right away its not because i don't deserve his love, because I'm always a priority to him, but its just My Father in Heaven reminding me to be patient to be steady in my works and don't give up. Sometimes those moments of being alone and scared are those memories we wont forget because when we receive the comfort we've been asking for it will be a feeling that makes it worth waiting for. I know that Jesus Christ will never give up on me and I know that when I'm feeling as if nobody understands because sometimes earthly companions dont that Jesus Christ does. He went through exactly what i am going through just so i wont have to face it alone. Lastly, I made a promise to myself that I will forgive others as my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ so easily and quickly forgive me.

This Sunday was an answer to everything. 

Happy Sunday XX

Ataya

Autumns Fallin'

OH, October! how i lalalalove you!

Where do i even start??

I just love autumn (partly because its my middle name) but for everything fun it has to offer!

Its the few weeks out of the year in California where i can put on my cozy sweaters and boots, drink pumpkin hot chocolate and snuggle up in the biggest possible blanket i have!

Not to mention the pumpkin patch! awhh i just love pumpkin everything!

seeds, bread, drinks, what else??

  Fun fact : My junior year i was in FFA and got to take care of farm animals! 

ever since i just simply love piggys! 

What better way to fall even more in love with fall then go to the pumpkin patch with your best girls and run around taking fun pictures! ( even if the (cute) workers watch you make a fool of yourselves)

 OW OW check out those hotties!

Picture overload i know! but i havent been out of the house in a week and just had too much fun!

This is my last Halloween at home and i plan on making every last second count!

just wait until you see my costume! 

and in case you where wondering: of course I'm dressing up! 

But its a surprise so stay tuned!(;

Hmmm well on a more serious note,

Here is my fall goal(s): 

1. Get in kick butt shape so i dont feel like a LOSER

when i watch the VS fashion show in December

2. be nicer. okay I'm a really nice person and

have a positive attitude but

its been too easy lately to get annoyed with people

and just want give them some sass and go on with my day

so Ive been making sure i catch myself when i think something even remotely rude

and try to keep a smile on my face

and let me tell you! I'm just simply happier 

because I'm not letting other rude/annoying people influence my day!

after all we are all children of god...and i should

 treat them way. Even if they insist on annoying

me until i feels like i will explode...

XX

The girl who cant get enough fall!

P.S. I need like an intervention... I cant stop watching Nashville! ahhh darn netflix