Sundays Best

Oh Sunday how i la la la love you!

Not only is sunday the perfect day to catch up on sleep from the week and those horrible Saturday nights you may or may not of had... but how fun is it to get up in the morning and get all dolled up in your Sundays best?? I for one adore putting together a fun classy new outfit, putting on a pair of my highest heels, and make my way to church with Hilary Weeks playing in the background.

| polka-dot crop top:Forever 21 | Tulle Skirt: DIY | Shoes: Love D

Well as i was getting ready i thought to myself "hey! i pulled together a pretty cute outfit and have pretty much got this whole messy bun thing down. but something seems off." i looked at myself in the mirror trying to figure out was wrong. Staring at yourself in the mirror for a long time is NOT a good idea. I began to knit pick every little thing about me.

Realizing my eye liner was uneven, i had an annoying blemish, my cheeks are just too chubby, and of course i thought this skirt made me look fat!( how dare i think these things right??) i started to rethink my whole outfit because i just felt simply hideous. My mood went from perky and positive to "why cant i just be a victoria secret model"

Before i could start ripping of another never worn outfit i looked down to my jewlery and saw what was missing, my young women medallion.

A symbol of my worth and of my beauty as a daughter of god. i put on my necklace and it seemed to lay so gracefully on my neck and complimented me.

I'm definitely one of those girls who come down way to hard on myself for not being society's idea of "pretty". Its so easy to tell yourself you're not good enough or thin enough and to try to fix yourself to become the worlds definition of beauty. But guess what!! That's exactly what the world is wanting to make you do.

It wants you to change and blend in with everyone else. It wants you to forget your self worth and your individual beauty and not appreciate who you are.

and i am done feeling this way. I'm accepting myself the way i come and i will never doubt my beauty again because i am so much more than society. I am a daughter of god.

Me and my friend, Emily Baker, always half joke that we are princess but we really are princess and every time I'm feeling down about myself this is what i remember.

I'm a princess so I'm going to treat myself exactly like that. I know for a fact that my heavenly father wouldn't want me to think of myself as anything less than that.

Happy Sunday

XX

Dear Husband

i know, i know. I'm not married and its a couple years off but its definitely one of those things i am thinking about when my mind drifts off during 4th period English. 

All these questions come to my mind: What will he looks like? Wait, do i already know him? i mean 80% of people marry someone they knew in high school.. Is he one his mission right now? Is he going to be tall (tall boys are my weakness)? does he think about me or how he needs to prepare himself to be married?

Then i start picturing our life. Us in a cute two story home with a white picket fence, he comes home from work and i have dinner all made and ready (i need to start learning how to cook. thank the heavens for pinterest!) and then i begin thinking of our names for a children. If you're a girl and say you've never done that than you're lying(;

well as it's easy to tell i have spent a lot of time thinking about these things and a little over a year ago i decided "hey, why not tell him about these things"

again, i know i'm not married but its never too early to start preparing!

I started writing letters to him when i was about 15 and haven't stopped since and i plan on giving them to him the night before our wedding

Here are my most recent three.

I write a lot about the struggles i am going through and how I'll always remember to think of him and how he is the bigger picture.

I've wrote to him about the things i have given up because i know they wont lead me to him and I've even said a couple things to him about my first "break up"

" You're my goal and my motivator. With out knowing that i have someone I'm going to spend eternity with, this struggle I'm going through would be way harder. I'm making decisions in my life now to guide me toward you. I'm understanding that i need to go through heartbreak now so when I am with you i will understand the pureness of our love. I know this pain I'm going through is a blessing in disguise because soon I'll never have to feel it again because I'll find you, my eternal companion."

That was a little chunk from my most recent letter to him.

Not all my letters are so serious though. I have a couple that are me just joking around being a typical teenage girl and telling him I'm so excited to meet him and what not.

These letters aren't just for him but me too. They remind me to stay positive and to work for that happiness i want us to have. I've been upset over a boy for the past couple months (MONTHS, i know! like come one that's way too long!) but whenever a memory about us or eagerness to just text him and remind him of everything that used to be i think of my husband. The One that will love me forever, not just like me for a couple weeks, The One that will treat me like a princess, The One that will comfort me in my darkest of times, and The One who will go to any lengths to protect my virtue and is eager to find eternal life with me.

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I always end my letters in a silly way and remind him how much i love him and how i cant wait for out wedding day. I also remind him that he is in my prayers every night. Praying that he is doing what is right and preparing himself for me as i am for him, i pray that he is doing what our heavenly father is asking him and is preparing for or is on his mission bringing the knowledge of truth to everyone he meets.

My future husband is my ultimate goal and motivator and i cant wait to begin falling in love with him.

Stay positive

XX

PS want to hear something funny about these letters?? Well on one of my first ones i wrote when i was younger i drew a funny little doodle of how our life will go and what not and for our first date i drew us on a farris wheel and wrote "step one: cheesy first date" Well! my very first date EVER the guy took me on a ferris wheel! haha could you imagine me dying on the inside?? 

The Golden List

okay! So me and my two adorable friends went to go see The Ultimate Life last week and we fell in love! It isn't a very well known movie and only a few theaters where showing it. We raced over directly after school and quickly got comfy in our seats and watched with stupid girly smiles on our faces for the whole hour and 45 minutes. Needless to say its one of my favorites!

(my two favorite characters)

Well, one part that really stuck out to me and my friends was when Red (to the left) learned a great way to start his day.. The Golden List. Every morning he learns his start his day by listing ten things he is great full for. This was he learns to stay humble and remind himself of the small things in life.

With out a second thought me and my friends all agreed on getting journals and starting our own Golden List and start our day off with this positivity. 

arent they too cute! (both the journals and my friends(; )

Every morning we list our 10 things we are great full for. Either being big or small we remind ourselves that we need to count our blessing not our trials.

Todays list was a little harder to think of than others but i did find ten! and it always seem like once you start adding them all up the more you can think of. 

Its a good way to start my day and also gives us a laugh to read each others! One of my favorites from emilys list was "Cuddling (even though i've never really done it before)" haha shes amazing!

Who knows whose reading this but maybe we can start a trend(;

stay positive XX

I got a blog! What? Another teenage girl enter the blog world? How unheard of(; Well its my first post and i thought what a better way start then do a getting to know you game, right?

Thats me(: 

10 things you should know about me:

1. I've never had anyone meet me for the first time and get my name right(come one its not THAT hard)

2. I love love love anything disney! Especially princesses, i plan to be one some day(;

3. I'm a Senior in high school (FINALLY!!!) and have switched schools every year. I like to switch things up

4. I love the beach, i mean what 17 year old girl from california doesnt?

5. but i cant wait for winter and beyond excited for snow days once i move to utah when i graduate

6. I love love yet I've only been on one date but thats okay my future husband will make up for the time lost(:

7. Anything girly i love. and i mean ANYTHING ie. makeup, clothes, nail polish, glitter!

8. I'm a firm believer in chocolate, it can change your day

9. I love writting letters to people yet i usually forget to give it to them oops

10. Im a Daughter of God and a Latter Day Saint. I learn it I live it and I love it!

P.S. how amazing is my sister for setting up my blog?? Its too adorable!